The problem is that I can’t find a new way out. The reason why I was keeping looking for jobs while I am still working in this company is it can relieve my anxiety to some extent. Maybe I can find some solace in knowing what jobs I can find in the market. But things are not going well. Most people just rejected me directly cuz I have changed jobs too many times in last 2 years. And after very few interviews, the interviewers think my lack of ability and experience doesn’t fit their requirements. The point is not whether I should attend interviews or not but the thing which prevailed I am not reallly recognized by the society. I can’t find a relatively decent job in this situation. I am in a daze. What can I do? What’s the next step? What can help my situation better? I am a slow learner. I always think I am the worst person in the world. I can’t help doubting my meaning of existence. Changing for my kind is not that easy. It’s a slow process which cannot fit the fast pace under current situation. People can’t just wait for my growing up. The basic principle of human society is just as simple as it is: if you can’t do it, you are out.